You’ve been shamed for being different

When you’ve never built any proof about the person you want to become.

Liking yourself is hard.

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It’s a constant struggle to believe in your self or to listen to other people.

And this is even harder now because of academia.

When you’re in school - you are taught to follow rules and rigid schedules you’ve never set for yourself.

This shapes you into an autonomous productive robot that doesn’t question and follows what the teacher says and the institution so you get a good grade.

Because you’ve been taught getting a good grade means being successful.

But that’s very far from being true.

Sure maybe in the 90’s you could get a good job when you graduated with a good GPA.

But this is the modern world.

There are teenagers making $100k/m without having a degree. But most people will think it’s a lie or a facade.

And that’s because of societal conditioning.

When someone stands out - we call them weird or stupid. Because it’s easier to criticize than to compete.

When you have a classmate who said they’ll be a millionaire in their early 20’s - you laughed and criticized.

And that’s no coincidence.

Students in the modern world are taught to be followers not leaders.

That’s why those who stand out are often the ones to get cut down first. Because your peers will think you are a threat.

To their ego and to their success.

Everyone follows something and most of the time it’s not themselves.

Could be their parents, siblings or a teacher.

Being shamed for being different is a tactic many people use to those who have the potential to be great stay average.

Because people are egoistic. Very few people in the world are psychologically healthy.

Most are exhausted, depressed and suic*dal.

The traditional path ensures your life will be miserable.

• Go to school

• Graduate with college debt

• Work hard to pay off the debt

• Grow old and retire broke

• Die early than usual because you never took care of your health

This slope is more common than you think.

If you open your eyes to see clearly - you’ll realize most of your family has gone through this.

Societal Conditioning

Ever since you were young - you were taught to trust authority.

Because authority is right. You never questioned them.

You followed what your parents said because they had authority over you.

Your father followed his boss because he had authority over him.

You followed what your teacher want because she ruled over your marks.

People are taught from an early age to trust authority but not themselves.

If you want to break free from this problem, you need to build your own beliefs.

Because most people have no original thought or opinions. They latch on to the latest rage bait and make it their identity. And that’s probably you (No offense).

Look at celebrity drama. There are people who spend hours and hours commenting and defending which ever celebrity they like.

And that’s because they’ve been conditioned to care about people who are popular and in authority but never themselves.

That’s why very few succeed because only a few realized they need to separate themselves from the masses if they wish to attain what they want.

If you ever catch yourself in a situation where you have no choice but to follow - it’s time you realize you are a slave to which ever has command over your life.

Your boss, your teacher, your Father, your Mother etc..

Being incompetent

Let’s be honest.

If you put nothing on the table but still get to eat - you are likely to be scorned and hated.

As a man - the rule is to provide.

You’re not allowed to just leech off other people’s work.

You need to perform and bring results. Men live very different lives than women,

If you were born a woman - very little will be expected from you unless you live with tyrannical parents.

But as a man - everyone expects you to be successful.

Even that homeless person on the street wishes you have money so you can give him money.

Men need to perform. And if you aren’t able to perform - you will be hated.

Because it’s in your DNA and other people’s psyche how men have always been the provider.

The caveat is not everyone deserves the food you bring. That is why you must be careful about who and what you work hard for.

If you work hard to brag - you are wasting your time.

The idea of being validated by other people because of your status is fickle. What you need instead is to be valued.

By people who love you and care for you. And that is usually your parents and siblings.

Outside of that - others don’t really matter unless they were very helpful to you.

Not even your girlfriend will appreciate you unless she’s high quality.

Many men live lives of desperation. Because from their childhood they have understood; in order to be loved they must be useful.

But most men do not realize they are being loved by the wrong people.

That they are working hard for the wrong audience.

It’s always the case - most people work hard in order to brag to people who do not care if they live or die instead of focusing on attaining better life quality.

Most people want fame and status so people who didn’t care about them will care about them.

Don’t be one of this guys.

You time needs to be spent properly. Chasing the validation of people who don’t matter is a waste of time.

A slave to other people’s persona

When you live for other people - you live for an audience that doesn’t care about you.

You start to:

• Prioritize what other people say

• Change your behavior in order to be liked

• Fake your personality so you don’t get hated

When you live a lie - everything around you becomes a lie.

Your life gets miserable because you’re always performing. And that’s exhausting.

It mentally taxes your mind. And it doesn’t heal in a day.

Living a life led by other people is pointless. Not only do people do not care whether you make it or not - they will also actively sabotage your progress.

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Hiding your true self

When you keep holding back - deep inside you - you take damage.

Because what’s inside always listens.

When you wish to be an artist but became a doctor - the voice inside you will never shut up.

Sure maybe you can numb it once in a while with some booze and smoke - but will it go away? no, never.

It’s always there. Even when you’re about to die you’ll remember your true dreams in life.

And most people never listen to that voice.

Because they fear it. They fear knowing what they could’ve been. Your self that could be living the life you wish to live could’ve been true if only you listened to that inner voice.

But because you didn’t - now you will suffer. Because yourself is brutally honest.

Most psychological issues come when we ignore warnings that come from our gut and inner psyche.

When you always wanted to be different but conformed to society - your inner self can’t help but hate you.

Because you live a lie. A life that’s built on conformity instead of being you.

There will come a time where you will understand what I’m saying. Until then you need to listen to your inner voice.

Because one day that inner voice will change. It sounds will become faint and everything will sound depressing.

Because things change. The longer you keep ignoring what’s inside you - the more you will unconsciously make your life worse.

What you hide doesn’t go away.

And it’s much better when you’ve already made peace with it than deal with the damage it could bring.

Understanding who you are

Life ultimately rewards those who break the programming built by other people.

The longer you ignore who you truly are - the longer it takes for you to heal.

I’m not saying you should believe whatever your mind says. I’m saying you need to listen to your inner voice.

The inner voice

Inside us there’s a version of us that wants us to do better. It doesn’t speak nicely and it’s harsh.

It doesn’t care whether you get hurt or not.

And that’s the point.

Most people do not listen to this voice.

Like for example: You’ve liked a girl for years. Yet every time you see her, you don’t make a move even though deep down you want to talk to her.

This is betrayal to your soul.

When you have something to do - you need to understand - so long as you continue to ignore this voice.

It will always come back to haunt you.

What you hide doesn’t go away.

It’s always there buried deep inside you. Not loud but always there. Saying something you will dislike.

The longer you deny this voice - the bigger the damage you will have to deal with.

I know this because I understand it very well. I’m not saying you should listen to it every time.

But there’s a different instinct between overthinking and gut feeling.

Overthinking is useless. It doesn’t really help other than take away mental energy.

But gut feeling is different. It’s like a sign from GOD that you should listen to. And every time you don’t - life gets worse.

I know this because 2 years ago in my twitter journey I’ve already had a gut feeling that I should pivot and start a newsletter.

I ignored this voice and I wasted months with no results.

Can’t say I didn’t learn from it. Thanks a year of writing tweets consistent- I’ve able to harnessed my writing skills enough to be able to articulate my thoughts in a practical manner.

It’s all a learning process.

Building proof

If you want to stop hating yourself - you need to build proof to yourself.

You hate yourself simply because the things you said you were going to do - you never did.

And that’s self-betrayal.

As a man you should be penetrating the world with confidence and boldness.

There is no room for shyness and incompetence.

The world does not care about weak men.

A homeless man have died today in the streets and no media outlet cared about him.

Your life will continue to get worse the more you betray yourself and never do what your inner voice is telling you.

I know this because I’ve had hard times myself. I grew because of the pain I went through. And it wasn’t easy but worth it.

I suffered for 3 years with OCD. My mind was always at constant fear of death and anxiety. I couldn’t sleep for hours even when I’m at bed.

Yet here I am alive and psychologically healthy.

Thanks to my efforts and sacrifices.

You can always do the same.

It’s never to late to change unless you’re dead.

But you’re not because you’re here reading.

There’s always time.

It’s just your mind holding you back.

That’s all.

Good luck

And see you next time

-Noat

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